I haven't posted in a while and for this I am sorry. However life for the last few months has been busier than ever. I recently moved out into a new home, which I love. I went to Mexico for 2 weeks, which I loved. I am still in school and just realized that I volunteer an average of 90 hours per month, I know right "what the heck." Im not telling you this to brag about my cool trip or about my dedication to altruism, all of this need not be verbalized hahaha. No I am honestly just trying to justify the lack of blog posts. Ok enough small talk and banter, I have learned an important lesson this month and need to relay said teaching.
The specifics of this story I cannot and will not go into like I normally do, so do not ask. I will however provide a basic outline of the events that were conductive to the lesson I have learned.
This last month I was faced with a great test or lesson or whatever you want to call it. I was given opportunity. The opportunity I was given was something I had been praying for, seeking after, and was something that could one day benefit my future dreams, desires, and goals. You could say that this opportunity, if met with success, would have been life changing. So what did I do? Did I grab opportunity by the horns and take off ? Did I let opportunity pass my by like an idiot? Ill tell you what I did, I fought, struggled and wrestled with God for days on end because He revealed that this was not the opportunity for me.
Now I know what your thinking because its what I thought "If thats what you were praying for shoudn't that be it?" Turns out no.
When Jesus walked through the desert for 40 days and nights and was tempted by the devil, the devil offered Jesus his dreams. He gave Jesus the opportunity to become king of all the Earths nations with no need of enduring the cross. This is what Jesus wanted, prayed for, and was ultimately sent for. But Jesus knew that no matter how good it looked and no matter how much He wanted it, it was not the opportunity for Him.
Let's get somethinng straight, the opportunity presented to me was not the devil. The opportunity placed in front of me was a good thing. It was just not the one God had purposed for me. I used the illustration of Jesus in the desert to give an appropriate example of what I mean by "not the right opportunity for me." Because the lesson that I have learned is about knowing Gods will, purpose and design.
It took a lot for me to understand Gods will at this time. I wanted to jump on this opportunity like white on rice, black on a pan, something on a something...I really wanted to give it a whirl dangit! You get the idea? That being said, the last thing I was listening to was "No." I had to pray everyday, search the word, and most importantly seek council with the spiritual authority in my life. I didn't want to believe the answer let alone follow it, but the truth is the only thing that matters.
Lets put It this way, say you absolutely hate hate hate breaking the law, it pains you to break the law. Now your driving in your car and its awesome because there Is no speed limit, "bbbbboooyaaaaaaa I hit 250 kilometers an hour!" But just then you see a limit sign displaying the words 'max. 50km/hr.' Now as much as you love going 250 it absolutely pains you to break the law, and the law states that you need to only go 50. This may be a poor analogy and I don't know if you will even understand but this is what the truth is to me. If I go on living day to day not knowing the speed limit or Gods will, I can just go on doing whatever I want; however, it pains me to go against his will, so when I see a limit sign, no matter how bad I want to keep going... I know the truth now and I have to slow down.
As a Christian I believe It is of the utmost importance to seek out the will of God. I believe that Christians need to be able to surrender themselves to Gods will even in a time where you believe with all your heart that you are right, where the thing you want is seated right in front of you, I believe that as Christians we need to know the difference between Gods will and our own.
I had a very hard time, more than most of you will ever know, but I stepped out in faith and let the opportunity go. Some people may one day call me a fool, some may even right now but I know that my God has seen this faithfulness and will return to me with a full reward, whether on Earth or in Heaven. So my message to you is this: Try to find the will of God in every decision, pursue His purposes, seek first the kingdom of God and these will be added unto you.
Anyways thanks for reading and I hope this meant something to you. Ill be back again, hopefully sooner rather than later.
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